the year's almost over :)

2008 IS ALMOST OVER, WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?

Kissed someone new?

-- yes. many many kisses on the cheeks of new friends :)

Done something you've regretted?

-- it was a mistake but no regrets for me.

Lost someone?

-- the person's not lost. the role just changed.

Cut class?

-- yes. now i wanna say sorry to my religion professor :)

Were involved in something you'll never forget?

-- yes!

Visited a different country?

-- sadly, no.

Cooked a gross meal?

-- no!

Lost something important to you?

-- luckily, i haven't.

Dyed your hair?

-- my mom won't allow me!

Came close to losing your life?

-- yes. everytime i cross the street. hahaha! im a stupid ass!

Went to a party?

-- of course!

Read a great book?

-- many.

***

2008: Friends and Enemies.

Did you meet any new friends this year?

-- many many many. and im very thankful :)

Did you dislike anyone?

-- yes.

Did you grow apart from anyone?

-- uhhh. i dunno.

Do you have any regrets when it comes to your friendships?

-- none.

***

2008: Your Birthday.

Did you have a cake?

-- i had 3!

Did you have a party?

-- a surprise and an official.

Did you get any presents?

-- yes. thanks to my friends :)

***

2008: All about You.

Did you change at all this year?

-- for the better, yes.

Did you get your hair cut?

-- i cut my hair short. hahaha! adik eh...

Were you in school?

-- 98% of the year!

Did you get good grades?

-- average. hahaha!

Did you have a job?

-- no.

Did you drive?

-- yeah.

Did you own a car?

-- during the summer. hahaha!

Did anyone close to you give birth?

--3 friends?

Did you move at all?

-- drom to house, house to dorm.

Did you go on any vacations?

-- an overnight at puerto galera. does that count?

Would you change anything about yourself now?

--anything for the better.

***

2008: Wrap Up.

Was 2008 a good year?

-- yes!

Do you think 2009 will top 2008?

-- i wish :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

my great 2008

time passes by so fast. new year's day is fast approaching and very soon, we'll be saying goodbye to 2008 and hello to 2009. my 2008 has been great! i know this sounds so dramatic but even though there came many problems and trials and depressing moments, i still managed to make my year a good one.

i remember the time when 2008 was just starting and feng shui shows and articles were all around... the "experts" said that people born under my year will be unlucky. they were kinda right in saying that, fine. many weird and unusual thing happened but i never really considered them unlucky. for other people maybe, but for me? no, no, no. i believe that things will be unlucky if you just consider them as such. there were moments that things didn't go my way but i made it a point to find ways on how to alter what was happening.

the greatest lesson of this year? think mature and never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game. AND DON'T LIVE YOUR LIFE ACCORDING TO WHAT THOSE EXPERTS SAY. have control of your own life!

have a good year ahead!

from my grandma :)

my grandma wants to say merry christmas and her wish is PEACE on earth.
hahaha! i love her so much. she's so cool!

VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS!

oh, oh, oh yeah! finally, after one month, my blog is updated. i must admit that i became so busy the past month that i barely had time to visit my one and only blog in cyberworld. tsk, tsk. bad me. i've decided when i woke up this morning that i MUST blog today because my page is just starting to become so benign like a cancer cell.

so... it's the 24th of december- a couple of hours til christmas day. i am just so excited because i can almost taste the christmas-y atmosphere. all is busy preparing for noche buena. the song is right- 'tis the season to be jolly. goodbye to all the requirements, to all the toxic nights, to all the i-have-no-choice-but-not-to-sleep lectures. IT IS CHRISTMAS VACATION! we are lucky because we are given two weeks of rest and be with our family and be happy. i know i am so OA because it's not like a once in a lifetime experience... but for me, it is one of the best gifts for this holidays - rest and relaxation.

oh yeah... i am so, uber happy! i don't know. this christmas feels so different. maybe because i just became so stressed at school... anyway, gotta go! hafta prepare dessert for christmas dinner. but hey, i want your opinion- what's better? fruit salad or buko pandan? it's been the argument of our house since last night. hahaha!

very merry christmas everyone!
never forget that giving and forgiving is the spirit of this season :)

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thanks to jes- the blog huntress. i definitely love love love your blog too :)


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helloooo christmas!

christmas is actually nearing and it feels so good.

i love the feeling of chilly mornings, christmas carols everywhere, karoling outside our house every night (actually i just hear them whenever i'm home. but i know those kids), happy families around the mall for christmas shopping, toy sales, big christmas trees and fancy decors.

ohh lala! it's the best season of the year!
ADVANCE MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE :)

not my way.

i am really upset. i consider the past 7 days not bad... but disastrous! i don't know but it seems that things are not going my way this time of the month. it's not the week of friday the 13th, right? and even if it is, i don't believe that it brings bad luck.

what could be worse in finding out that your computer is busted when you have to pass a 23- page case study of a disease that is very new to you? what could be worse in being in a male ward full of soldiers that keeps on staring at you as if you're the first woman they have ever seen? what can be worse in losing someone when you least expect it? what could be worse in you being so happy because your PC has been finally revived but all the files were deleted? what could be worse in feeling that everything will get worse?

i know i am so bad that i don't see the positive side of life but for pete's sake,i feel really weak to be strong right now. like for example, being with soldiers... they are all kind and nice and all but sometimes they have this jokes and pick- up lines and stares that shiver down my spine. i have this patient which is as old as my dad and his stare still says that he has interest to the student nurses around him. the nerve! i know, i can go to him and say 'can you just stop looking at us? because it is really awkward!' but i'm just not in the mood to argue and be scolded by my clinical instructor.

i must not feel upset anymore. this week will be another 7 days. i must not live on the past. i must cheer up and fight. things will eventually go my way and get better. right, right.

11 to 1

11 things on your birthday list:

1. a new laptop. PLEASE! i can't use properly the one i have now.
   
2. an SLR camera
   
3. 10,000 worth of gift certificate acceptable to any shop
   
4. sony PSP
   
5. one pair of nike dunks
   
6. complete taekwondo gear
   
7. an electric guitar
   
8. many many many books
   
9. trip to singapore, greece or rome
   
10. a course at PCCI
    
11. a boyfriend. ha-ha!
    

10 random things about you

1. i scream for ice cream!
   
2. i love to draw but i'm not really that good
   
3. i study in a university across robinson's place manila
   
4. i smile and laugh alot
   
5. i eat raw noodles
   
6. i always chew on drinking straws
7. i love caffeine because i am always, i mean ALWAYS sleepy
   
8. i like meeting new people but i am a really shy person
   
9. i've started taekwondo lessons without any reason
   
10. i am childish but i think mature
    

9 things you wanted to be when you were a kid

1. to be a teacher and teach street children how to read and write
   
2. to be a rock star and have a jam-packed concert. ha-ha
   
3. to be a painter and paint a church's ceiling
   
4. to be a professional photographer and capture memories
   
5. to be a flight attendant and travel the whole world
   
6. to be an architect and build a beautiful house for my parents
   
7. to be a superhero and save the world
   
8. to be a witch and be with harry potter forever
   
9. to be a chef and cook the most delicious food
   

8 of your favorite things to eat

1. ice cream!
   
2. persian food especially shawarma
   
3. spicy kani maki
   
4. chocolate
5. arabian food (yellow rice and roasted chicken)
   
6. pasta
   
7. rocky milk bread
   
8. anything potato
   

7 things to do before you turn thirty

1. be successful in my profession
   
2. find the one i will spend forever with
   
3. have at least 1 child
   
4. own a house
   
5. own a car
   
6. have enough money for my family
   

6 things/people/events that inspire you

1. GOD
   
2. my family
   
3. graduation :)
   
4. the Nursing Licensure Exam that i will soon take
5. my friends
   
6. my grandparents
   

5 of your favorite shops

1. powerbooks
   
2. national bookstore
   
3. bayo
   
4. topshop
   
5. toys r' us
   

4 of your bestest friends/closest friends

1. kaye
   
2. ivan
   
3. ulrik
   
4. james
   

3 of your favorite things in your bedroom

1. our BED
   
2. desktop
   
3. television
   

2 things you don't want to do right now

1. go to manila. the classes will start again!
   
2. stand up and get water downstairs
   

1 thing you want to happen right now

1. a genie to appear in front of me so that at least three wishes of me would be granted :)

metanoia

i've been really weird lately because i feel that i am in the phase of metanoia (me-tan-noya) which means a total change of heart. yes, i am having these out-of-this-world thoughts and realizations.

1. i realized that am really meant to be a nurse. before, i don't really dream of wearing a scrubsuit. i swore to myself back then that if ever i will be given a chance, i will shift to architecture-the course that i was actually dreaming of. but after passing the first semester of my junior year, i already know that this is GOD's fabulous plan for me. I AM GOING TO WHERE A SCRUB SUIT AND SAVE LIVES. I AM A NURSE :)

2. my old multiply site that really suckingly sucks is now under construction. i've decided that it deserves to be treated as a real 'multiply' site. haha! and my decision is right. people started to acknowledge my page.

3. single life is not really boring. i have my friends, my family and my school career. my search for mr. dreamboy, i will stop for the meantime. forwarded text messages are right, hindi hinahanap yan, dadating lang bigla. (i good realization for my lovelife, right?)

4. this second semester, i should focus on my studies and lessen my gala sessions with my barkada. i mean, rob ermita after class won't hurt but dorm visiting? na-ah, goodbye for some time.

5. i should never waste my chances. God is really good for granting my prayers. i should always thank Him for these. I almost failed but He gave me the chance to stand up. I'M GRABBING ALL THE OPPORTUNITIES NOW :)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN GUYS!
sit and stop for a while, maybe you'll have thoughts like mine!
enjoy your parties for the night :)

INDAAAAAAAAAY!

whenever i have classes and i go home for the weekened, i am little miss pampered student nurse. my mom knows that i am oh-so-tired from all the hospital duties, never-ending requirements and nose-bleeding quizzes and exams. she would always cook 'special' dishes, my favorites. and when it is time for me to go back to manila, she has all the baons- the promdi foods you can never find in manila- prepared beside my bag.

but weekend breaks are way, way, way, different from sembreaks. from being little miss spoiled i was transformed into kikay inday. kumbaga kung lalaki ka, ikaw ang boy ng bahay. oh yes. it is a working sembreak for me. my mother, because i am just so lucky, got busy the moment i started the second half of my break... so if you already figured it out- i have to do all the cooking, the cleaning, the merienda-preparing for the carpenters, the answering of the phone and the yelling sessions with my younger siblings.

i never complained to my mother because i get these priveleges like free nail treatments and free loads. and the thing is it's a form of exercise. i have to burn these fats in my bulging tummy. those glasses of alcohol i had consumed during the past parties are smiling and saying hello to me in the form of adipose tissues when i look in the mirror. doing chores is also an excuse from watching texas chainsaw massacre or the grudge 2 or vacancy or whatever scary/gory movie there is.

maybe it is not a bad idea after all. and besides, classes will start next week... you know what i mean. *evil laugh here*

business

quoted from my friends bulletin:

"Sony PS2 with one original CD, controller and other accessories on it..

Hindi pa xa converted but bagong bago pa..

Di ko kc ginagamit kaya benta ko nlang..

pm me if interested kayo para pagusapan natin ang price..

-Manila Area Only-"

if you're interested. you can inform me in my tagbox. thanks :)

the walled city

it's a shame to say that i just had my first visit of intramuros. well, i have been to fort santiago during our field trip when i was in prep school. and that doesn't count, right? i don't even know back then that it was intramuros. sooo, yes... i had my first 'real' visit of the walled city last week.

my friend brought his space wagon with him. tamang- tama, vintage! haha! we entered the city and i was immediately fascinated with what i saw. i liked how the structures look. the buildings and houses reflect our history with the spaniards. basically, intramuros is a mirror of spanish architecture.

what more can i say? the place is simply breath-taking.

it's still not independence day

it's sem break again. the desire of each college student every mid-october. i love the feeling of having a break. you can sleep late and wake up late, you can watchTV ’til it smokes because it is turned on the whole day, you can bury your nose in a good pocketbook, and you can text all day long ’til your thumbs swell. yes, this is what you call a normal teenage life. i hate it that i am being deprived of these things ever since i started college. but what can i do right? a bright future requires some deprivations. like for one example, social life. BUT sem break can give it back to you! actually i've started my gala sessions last tuesday. FREEDOM, you are mine!

i am oh-so- excited for more. yes, 3 sheets of bond paper might not be enough for my long list of plans of what to do, where to go and what to buy. my ultimate goal this break is to be with my high school barkada. i really miss them so much. it is hard to accept that we are all busy with our own hectic lives that we barely have time to hang out anymore. so yes, i have to at least see them this vacation.

secondly, i have to go to bar. you wouldn't believe that my last bar visit was the past summer vacation. what the fuck, right? i want to dance all night and swear to hell because my feet are effing revolting already inside my high heels. i miss that. but enough of the alcohol-drinking sessions. i had more than enough during the first semester. because most of the celebrated birthdays for the past four months served alcohol as the main course. hehe!

blah blah blah. if i don't want to be here typing til the tenth decade of my life i would not recite all of my plans. believe me. i have thousands! hahaha!

anyway, i know you know how excited i am to accomplish my list for this sem break. pero dahil nursing student ako at ganito naman ang buhay namin- maybe i won't accomplish even one- fourth of my list. because, bloody yes, we will start our one-week training next monday. so our three- week semestral break will be gone. three weeks na nga lang nabawasan pa ng isa. grrrrrr.

really, bright future requires some deprivations. independence day will still be after 1 and a half years. I SHOULD BEAR THAT IN MIND.

sa malate

naroon siya. tumitirik ang mata. lumilipad.

naglalakad ako sa kahabaan ng mga kalye ng malate. galing ako sa M.H. del Pilar sa isang condominium doon. pumunta ako sa adviser namin ng research. maganda ang panahon. mainit ang araw ngunit ang hangin ay mararamdaman mo pa rin sa iyong mukha. maayos ang lahat. ang mag- asawang lagi kong nakikita na nag-aaway doon sa isang tagong eskinita ay tila tahimik ang buhay sa araw na iyon. ang mga babaeng nakaistambay sa labas ng isang bar ay hindi ko nakita. nagpapahinga siguro sila. ang mga batang paslit na naghahalungkat ng basura ay hindi pa nagkakagulo sa tirang pagkain na karaniwan ay pinag-aagawan- kahit butobutong manok galing jollibee.

nagsisimula ang kaguluhan sa malate pag gabi na. iba- ibang kulay ng ilaw ang makikita mo. maiingay ang kalye dahil sa mga tugtog galing bar at videoke ng mga lasing. kalat na ang mga koreano, hapon at kano kapag sumasapit ang gabi. mahal ko ang malate. tatlong taon na ako dito. magulo ngunit masaya. makikita mo ang night life ng maynila.

binagtas ko na ang kalye ng malavar. doon kasi ang kabilang gate ng aking unibersidad. patingin- tingin ako sa paligid. baka may bago. patawid na ako ng intersection ngunit marami pa ang mga sasakyan. tumabi ako, lumingon- lingon. naroon siya. tumitirik ang mata. lumilipad- isang bata sa nakaparadang pedicab. may hawak na plastik na may rugby. nasaan na kaya siya? siguro masasarap na pagkain ang nasa isip niya. siguro isang malaking mansyon kung saan siya at ang kanyang pamilya ay masayang naninirahan. siguro mararangyang mga damit. siguro lumilipad na siya sa kanyang mga pangarap.

marami ang adik sa rugby sa malate. bata, matanda, babae o lalaki. madalas may makikita ka sa daan na umaamoy mula sa isang supot ng kemikal na makakapagpalipad sa iyo. alam ko kung bakit. wala silang pera pangkain. gutom, hirap at kalungkutan ay binabawi nila doon. pag high ka sa rugby, wala kang iniisip. parang lahat ay abot mo. lumilipad ka lang.

sana ay malunasan sila. sana ay huwag pabayaan ng kung sino man ang may responsibilidad na tuluyang lumiit ang mga utak ng mga taong ito sa kakahithit ng rugby. wala doon ang buhay nila. wala...

la-la-la

i hate to see you go
the reason why i don't know
it's been months since you left me
but hey, i'm still the same girl you called baby

i don't have any plans of being a song writer but, yes. while i was taking a bath some words popped into my mind. and there, it became a verse. i came up with a tune too! a song dedicated for no one.

oh poetic me. i hate it.

the sili challenge

minsan talaga, wala kaming magawa sa buhay. kaya eto... nag-sili challenge kami.
ang weird namin noh? wala namang prize... ano kaya yun.
hahaha! panoorin nyo na lang.

i will save a life

i always want change. i am the kind of person who cares a lot. as a student nurse, we are having duties on hospitals like PGH. we all know that it is the largest public hospital in all 7, 107 islands of the Philippines. i have been there several times already for duties and outreach programs and i have seen, for several times also, the struggles of the patients staying there. could you believe that some patients stay at the corridors? no doubt, it employs the best, most efficient doctors of our nation... but still!

i can never change that fact- that the main public hospital of our country is like that. but i just told myself 'whatever it takes, i'll make change and i'll have contribution to PGH.'

it was our nursing day last wednesday and the Red Cross Youth Council, our school's chapter, organized a blood donation drive. the moment i saw the poster, i didn't think twice. i came in the room and inquired if i can donate blood. i was afraid, of course! the humungous needle freaked me out. nevertheless, this is the change i seek. i cannot do big things so i figured out that that was it.

one bag of my blood can save one life in PGH. i am proud of what i did :)

that's 450 cc of my blood :)

ULAN

i love the rain as much as i love the sun. when i think of rain, the first thing that comes into my mind is my childhood days. i was a lucky kid because my parents allowed me to get wet and have fun in the rain back then. it had been the talk of the week since it was very rainy and we rarely saw the sun.

i've learned through our wala-pang-prof kwentuhan sessions that my other classmates never experienced the fun under the rain.

TERE: na-experience mo na ba maligo sa ulan?
ME: oo naman! hindi ka pa?
TERE: hindi pa... shit, ang loser ko!
ME: sinabi mo pa! tara, ligo tayo. hahaha!
TERE: promise, gusto ko talaga. ang lalaking sumama sa kin an maligo sa ulan pakakasalan ko.

so there, i never imagined that staying under the rain is such a big deal. nevertheless, i realized that those who never experienced it during their childhood thinks it is a great, great, great thing to do. well, actually, it is nothing of great importance BUT IT IS MORE THAN FUN. i felt freedom back then when we just ran to the door and stayed outside the gate of our house and danced and splashed and did all the childish things children do when it is raining. oohhh... memories.

that was what excites me during my early years- "ULAAAAN! LARO TAYO SA LABAS!"
but now? "UMUULAN! SUSPENDED NA!"

the talk of the town.

i am a book lover. i started reading pocketbooks when i was still in primary school. i started with archie comics, then to sabrine the teenage witch, then to harry potter, then to dan brown and to more "matured" books. there was even a time that i finished a 700-page book in just two days. i was more than addicted. when i entered college, i barely have time to read anymore. all became so busy.

now i'm reading a 500-page book. i started 3 weeks ago and i'm still not finished! yes, your guess is right. it is the hottest, talk of the town TWILIGHT. girls, boys or whoever- all's just so addicted. i know it's weird, i really like the story and all but, besides i don't have the time, i don't want to finish the story. IT IS TOTALLY INSANE! i was never like that. when i like a story, i would try not to sleep just to finish the book but now, it's different.

i fell in love with edward cullen. the oh-so-perfect vampire in the book. well, i guess i don't have to explain. every person i meet everyday never fails to mention bella and edward, every page i visit has a blog of him and her, every magazine and newspaper i read has a critique of the book or author, everyone i see in the canteen, classroom or corridor is reading the book or the sequel of it. and now, i am officially making myself one of those oh-i-love-him-i-would-die-for-edwardcullen fans club.

and this morning, i decided that i would finish the book tonight. I MUST. all my classmates are reading it's last book already and i'm the only left stuck in the happy part. i have to be what i used to be again!

i am in love with a vampire who is not even real. I AM CRACKED.

3 days of rest

finally, we were able to have a break for three days. yes, your guess is right. we had a three- day RETREAT! hahaha!

the place was really beautiful. i didn't know my school owns a place like that. now i know where part of my tuition is going. it was in alfonso, cavite... a three- hour trip from malate. because we are lucky little kids, our tires got flat when we were already in alabang so we were delayed by almost 40 minutes. thank god it was not traffic. when we arrived, the first meal was served-PANSIT baby. then we were given the time to go around the place, rest and just be alone. then we watched The Bucket List starring Jack Nicholson and the dark guy i don't know by name.


The second day, we did the usual activities on a retreat- talk, reflect, talk, activity, blah blah blah. The night was the most fun of all. When our guardian finally entered her room... ALAM NA! all went room hopping, stayed at the corridor, played the guitar, ate chips, kuwentuhan. oh... teenage life. then, it was past midnight, one of our classmates in the first floor shouted. our adrenalines went up. we ran like athletes back to our rooms. after a minute or two, all went out again when it was sure that there is no room-check happening . my classmate who shouted took a picture with the rest, and there on the screen was a face of a little boy looking like toshio of The Grudge. what could be more scary??? all went to the room of the boys to look at the photo. i didn't dare to look at it because i know i will just scare myself but yeah, based on their description... the girls went ballistic. we decided to sleep at one room altogether because all were so scared to go back to their rooms. then the ghost stories went on. it was the funniest moment.

the third day, we were all sleepy because of the event the night before. we had a mass and went home. it was realyy really fun but we feel so bitin. i hope we would have one again... with the ghosts- they make every retreat worth remembering. hahaha!

*for more photos, just visit my multiply account :)

my good girl act

after days, i am able to blog again. actually, i do go online and check my blog every other day. i try to have a new post but my mind is always blank. like now. hahaha! i just decided to do this blog because my blog is getting kinda lame with no new updates. i think people who don't update their blog kind of suck so now i belong to the sucking suckers. see, there is no sense in what i am typing here. ha-ha!my life is just busy with hospital duties, quizzes, practices, MY RESREARCH REQUIREMENT- which chapter 1 is due this friday but i haven't started any- and other requierements.

one of my requirement is do 'acts of solidarity' for one week. how do we define solidarity? Solidarity can both refer to an action that caused change or you became an instrument of hope or meaning to people in suffering or need of aid. of course i don't do it intentionally. i believe that you have to do this without the thought of getting a high grade. right?

yesterday, i gave some coins to this kid who cleaned my shoes while i was on the jeep. and yes, i think i am already an 'instrument of hope'. hahaha! because the kid looked like he hasn't eaten for 2 weeks. i hate his parents for not giving him dignity. he works despite of the heavy rain and floody streets. and where are they? i think they are just out their nourishing themselves with alcohol with the money their child is getting from cleaning shoes. grrr.

i just want to spread the word. let us not be apathetic. let us care. our little deeds can be great acts in the eyes of other people. i felt like spiderman- the superhero who gives hope- when i gave that kid 5 pesos. try it, it feels great :)

just seeing them smile can lift your soul

ha-ha!

okay, this so weird. after posting craps about school, this guy arrived. he's just cute. he is the guy i always see at the court playing ball. hahaha! great. perhaps, after all, there is good karma.

school is cool. i mean it. ^_^

school is cool

i have been very very busy lately. define busy? everyday, when i arrive at my dorm, there is no time to rest anymore since i have many projects to do and many tests to review for. AND during weekends, i know i should rest because it is weekEND, i still don't have the time. what the hell, right?

now i'm here at the university's computer lab. it sucks. i can't access some sites here like friendster, myspace, blah blah blah and even my yahoo messeneger. ugh! like, hello?! it's the only way we can release our stress then you prohibited it? damn.

for the next 3 weeks, i have to stay for 6 days in school. no hospital duty, my friend. yeah, yeah... at first i was very delighted but then i realized it is a worse idea to stay here. it is sooo boring. my ethics class which is from 8 am to 2 pm, i discovered, is a very cool sleeping, texting, drawing time. ha-ha! okay, i am mean. i am supposed to do ethical things like listening to my professor because it is an ethics class and yet i continue doing very unethical things like designing my ideal house. DUH! it is so grade school.

okay, i hate to end this but i m just so out of my mind right now. i don't even know what i am typing. hehe! oh my god, i am turning into a psycho!

school is cool, mate! i love school... SHOOT ME.

to the rescue.

all is quarreling and crying. all of them with different problems. oh my. i'm the superhero- ready to save emotionally devastated individuals.

yeah... great. i need a hero too.

fun and drama

my mind is blank and has altered functioning. the week was not that busy but i still feel tired and exhausted. my week has been undescribable. fun and drama and extraordinariness? yes, full of it.

SUNDAY: my friend's cellphone just got stolen when we were buying something along pedro gil street, malate. we never expected it since she placed it to the depths of her backpack. tsk, tsk. my friend got so depressed.

MONDAY: my professor was absent since she didn't realize that we have a class on that day. and i was so outraged because i struggled to wake up early that day so as not to be late for her class! but the fun part was we have nothing to do! oh yeah.

TUESDAY: my professor came in early for class to 'make up' for the missed monday session. and she just reminded all of my classmates who have third eye to just shut up if they see anything unusual. DUH!

WEDNESDAY: the same professor, the same story. weird day because we went to library to finally utilize what we are paying for. we rarely go to the libraray. like, 5-7 times every semester. haha! we are such good students, i know.

THURSDAY: our dean/manager/whatever-she-is-because-i-don't-know-her-position interrupted our class to show us a letter posted anonymously in our college bulletin board. the letter was like- i condemn the nursing faculty for being so and so. i condemn the blah blah for being uncompassionate and insensitive. so on and so forth. what a rebel. and that was the gossip of the day. all was wondering who was the asshole who did the letter. i say HE/ SHE IS STUPID FOR NOT SIGNING THE LETTER. pag ginawa mo, lubusin mo na!

FRIDAY: our research topic was finally approved by our adviser. we can finally move on with our lives and start with chapter 1. yeah, way to go.

SATURDAY: it is today. drama, drama, drama. we had a debate during our asian civilization class- should the church be given a chnace to govern a country? we were the YES side and we did quite well. the other group was good too. but the tension built up and the debate ended up with two of our classmates quarreling. well, not really. the other said this joke and the other one took it seriously and they both cried- one at the comfort room,the other at the stairs. it was just so dramatic. yes.

so, it's sunday today. another week. i hope this week would be more okay and fun and exciting. a little drama would do but enough of the crying- quarreling part. i hate dramas.

i say good midnight and happy sunday :)

this is love <3

love love love. all's in love and happy with their partner. most of my friends got one. i am happy that they are happy. but honestly, i sometimes feel jealous that i am one of the singles. sometimes i go around the mall and see sweet young lovers with hands clasped together, laugh and cheer one another in the arcade, eat happily and with love in their eyes.

two of my roommates have a special someone and at times, they quarrel with their boyfriend. and i can't imagine myself quarreling with someone on the phone while reviewing for a long quiz and doing a powerpoint presentation. but i want someone i can go out with when i have a free time, i can laugh with when i feel sad, i can cuddle when i feel like cuddling.

i am so ambivalent.

but then i ask myself 'what's a boyfriend for?' i can go out, laugh and cuddle with my friends, right? maybe it's still not my time. yes, right.

studying hard for my parents. being with my friends when they need me. malling alone and feeling happy for the sweet couples around me. hearing mass every sunday to thank god. caring and making myself available for my patients. cracking corny jokes to make people laugh. preparing birthday surprises. going to arcades to play and sing videoke with my barkada. sleeping late to study for a quiz. THIS IS LOVE!




having a boyfriend is love too. but there's no hurry. he will come if the time is right. now, i am happy. happy that i know what LOVE is.

i just got this from my friend's friendster page.
judge it.
is this LOVE?