caffeinated dreams: this is love <3

love love love. all's in love and happy with their partner. most of my friends got one. i am happy that they are happy. but honestly, i sometimes feel jealous that i am one of the singles. sometimes i go around the mall and see sweet young lovers with hands clasped together, laugh and cheer one another in the arcade, eat happily and with love in their eyes.

two of my roommates have a special someone and at times, they quarrel with their boyfriend. and i can't imagine myself quarreling with someone on the phone while reviewing for a long quiz and doing a powerpoint presentation. but i want someone i can go out with when i have a free time, i can laugh with when i feel sad, i can cuddle when i feel like cuddling.

i am so ambivalent.

but then i ask myself 'what's a boyfriend for?' i can go out, laugh and cuddle with my friends, right? maybe it's still not my time. yes, right.

studying hard for my parents. being with my friends when they need me. malling alone and feeling happy for the sweet couples around me. hearing mass every sunday to thank god. caring and making myself available for my patients. cracking corny jokes to make people laugh. preparing birthday surprises. going to arcades to play and sing videoke with my barkada. sleeping late to study for a quiz. THIS IS LOVE!